Saturday Night

i'm so tired i could sleep for a year.

been standing from morning,only now i could rest a bit.shortly i've gotta welcome david and familia from cambodia.they are staying at the resort for a couple of days.

really am tired.my legs are almost numb,and the heat made it worse.it's so damn hot i lost my appetite.(cekik air je dari pagi..)

and i just received a call from hans,telling me that the mini convoy is down,so that means i have to cut my break short and attend to the problem.well,that is it,another busy saturday.


"Today shes been working, shes been talking, shes been smoking,But itll be alright,Cos tonight well go dancing, well go laughing, well get car sick,And itll be okay like everyone says, itll be alright and ever so nice,Were going out tonight, out and about tonight.
Oh, whatever makes her happy on a saturday night,Oh whatever makes her happy, whatever makes it alright."

i wish.

Fascination Street

morning so hot,and it was pouring like mad cats & dogs in the late afternoon.
that's the weather today,so crazy.

but when the rain subsided,i walked back slowly.it was perfect.in the horizon,among the giant clouds,the sky was in flames.there were puddles everywhere,the grass was wet,the leaves above were jingling down droplets of water,it was so cooling and fresh.the sight and smell of post-rain effect on a beautiful friday evening.

friday.yeah,and the weekend has landed.

tomorrow's gonna be another crazy day at work.the weekends are my rush hour.3 events-2 family days,and one company's award presentation.there are 5 guys in my crew,2 taken out for acrobatic show,and the rest,runs an event each.and another event on sun.it's gonna be fun.

i am hungry now,but i don't know what to eat.there are a variety selection of food here,but i think i am getting sick of it all.from local food to western cuisines,fast food,slow food,from one to the other corner,it's a foodfare.i feel like going back home for dinner,but the journey,Ahh.
marlia told me to come to her place and eat,but i turned down the offer.(asyik makan rumah org tak shiok pulak,kan?)
another idea that sprung;to make sandwiches-with cheese,tuna and all that stuff,sounds experimenting.so,after much thinking,i choose sandwiches.

now,i am getting ready,to go to the supermarket!


Bon Appetit!

Right Thurr

Ooooooooooo mata kuyu siak...

i had only 2 hrs of sleep due to all the football mania earlier this morning.good thing i wasn't late,but even if i did,my boss won't know it.we don't practise punch cards like most or reporting to the office to sign our presence.we don't.we just do our own work and just don't screw up our allocated duties and our asses won't be on fire.and that's why i had an hour breakfast with the gang.which was like around 11am then i quickly rushed finishing my outstandings.after underwent a boring safety talk,i briefed other dudes to complete small tasks and...

i left.took a half day off.tired lah.shower and change into new set of clothes and i buzzed off to marlia's place.lunch and played with her sis's kiddo,so hyper till he slipped and fell onto the cold floor.cengeng.lips bleeding.but 3 minutes later,he's back to his hyper activity mode.talkin about kids.
we went down to the playground and rushed back when it started to drizzle.

as the rain subsided,me and marlia scoot down town.illegal parked at a church at sophia rd,an easy evening stroll down peace centre.i was looking for valentine music centre.searched high and low,went to the next building,went back to the other building,checked the directory,asked around,in vain,zip,nada,takda.valentine music centre,a store,which once sells records,cds and turntables and stuffs,where anne will greet you nicely,has disappeared.and everybody i asked has a dumb look on their faces,"AH,WHAT AH?DON"T KNOW.."the only person who replied but somehow didn't really answer my question was a blonde chinese lady with a tattoo on her arm,"hey,you not the only one who asks that,you know?"i freaked out but i won't give up.no worries,i'll ask my boss when i see him tomorrow.

i have had enough of disappointments today.i'm so busy today that i forgot i didn't have enough sleep.gotta turn in now.

the reason why i decided to look for anne,is to checkout whether they have dr dre's chronic album.been searchin all around but,you know...next:excelsior-gotta look for paul and the rest,probably they will answer my prayer.

i'm outta here,baby!

Hey Jude

i am sleepy.i didn't have enough sleep.but i can't fall asleep now.gotta watch,witness myself the match between Liverpool and chelsea in a while.

so i had a good day today.everything was cool.i came late again but was too quick that even my boss didn't realise(yeah!)did some regular things as i did everyday at work.sweat a bit,bitch a bit.laugh a lot.some regular working day.boss bought a carousel,placed it at the lobby,engaged part timers to run that thing,i hopped on one of the horses,went around few rounds and got meself dizzy.later in the evening,i hung around with the 'probs' (props) dept.i didn't do my work,i know.(but i did a bit,so the earlier part in the later afternoon was my contribution and my bones still aching so i guess that's fair and there's actually nothing that i can do in the evening part except to play music at the console but there is 'practically' no people patronising,so i just put the cd players on a flip flop repeat mode,so 'practically' i am doing my job,the part timers are there doing what they supposed to do,the carousel and those mini convoy cars are operating fine,so end of story,i did my job.so unless there's an explosion,or a complaint i might be in hot water,but then again there isn't,so i still have my job,don't you think?)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH GGGGODDAMN!(bukan main marah lagik!)
we didn't earn it.lotsa action,right from the beginning,there were lotsa runnings,lotsa slips,miss cued balls,pushings and tossings and all we got-zero.and we've to watch in terror,mouth-gaped open,joe cole spotted the mistake,and simply shoved the ball in.WHAT!!!!
bakhtiar aka abg tit,was with me,cursing and swearing the whole 90mins.Zenden was a real disappointment!!!!but,well,they were good,though drogba,as usual,with all the dramas,but hey it was a good fight.but the battle isn't over,it's not over yet,so hold on to your balls blues,don't pop up the champagne yet,IT AIN"T OVER!FUBAR!!!we'll gain victory at Anfield for the 2nd leg soon enough!

now i'm really tired.gotta shut eye.i made a dash back to pasir ris,coz i have real reason to be afraid now.AFRAID TO BE LATE FOR WORK AGAIN.it's a disease.
and then,if i'm late,my day won't be lookin' good,ain't it?

adios hombres!

Born Slippy

i got high on movies earlier.watched apocalypto on dvd.hella good movie.my kinda shit.lotsa actions,emotions,thrillin' suspense(sospen)-fully loaded.got me biting my nails,my heart pounded faster,made me hyper,gave me cold sweat,almost a heart attack,Oooooo WHAT A RUSH!!!!!

the best thing,it's not in english,way cool!good thing there's subtitles,and cheers to mel gibson for another movie superbly well done.

i always enjoy watching movies like that.coz i will be completely immersed,swallowed whole into the picture,as if it's me they depicting.and depending on different movies;i will be the hero,i will be the villain or i will just be cameo role dude.i like it gore & violence with a twist,mind boggling,sick & slick stories that actually reach out and touch way deep are my kinda flicks.then it got me thinking,it got me worried a bit.coz some movies are based on true stories,and those things in the movies could actually happen to you,or me.in the movies,there are always something that we can learn,or at least prevent.i dislike the idea,of us got blindly influenced by the violence promotions-i don't.i got addicted.it haunts me.after every cool movie that i watched,i got carried away,it's every where,in my flesh,in my mind,in my sleep.but hey don't ya worry,i won't hurt nobody.it's just in me-in a dream like state but with a real feel,i bet you know what i mean,coz i believe you do too.and that's why i believe i am not alone.you'll never walk alone.(selit sikit)

the second movie i watched was wild hogs at the theatre with marlia naga.it was a stupid movie but yet entertaining.i laughed through out though the fact that i don't like travolta.and the only movie that i actually agree of him to be in was pulp fiction.the rest,he's a fag in another fag movie.(grease lightning,Eeeeeee nyampah nye!!)

got the killing fields but ain't got no time to watch,probably gonna save it till next week's off day.today gotta do lotsa things and gotta rush home to watch the reds vs the blues coz too bad got no cable at the shack back at work.and right now it's the boring man u vs milan,and i do really hope the latter team wins.Boo ya!


love and evol
jaguar paw

Detroit Rock City

Return Of The Tres

So we went skating.rendezvous point was the old capitol at midnight.this time,it was a good trip out.together we fixed yanto's griptape and from city hall we cruised down to somerset skate park.we should have put on our night visions,coz it was real dim and there were puddles of water but still it was alright.

i fell.like nangka busok.i fell when i was boardsliding and slipped.gedebakkkk!!!

punya la sakit!!fell on my back,i didn't have enough time to avoid it.and it's a bad thing to fall backwards.landed real hard on my back,slammed my butts and palms as well.my ears ringing,it was really painful,my friend.i stood up quickly and walked.i was alright but my left palm was stingin'.it was swollen.but we played on.

after a while,we got thirsty,left the park,went to 7-11,bought ourselves refreshing drinks and chocs and proceed back with the programme.we stopped at smu.ollied down some steps and gedebakkkk!!!again,i hit bonus points.it struck me double time.by then my palm was in real pain.i quit,i sat down and watched.was trying to mellow down the swell,i hold my palm.after some time,we decided to go back.we cut across smu buildings,and finally capitol.hopped onto our scoots,had the worst tea at bencoolen and zapped home.

so the 'killer' pain only arrived the next morning.knees and backs were madly achin'.but it was a good thing i didn't have much work yesterday.now i am recuperating.watched some skate vids and at the same time be inspired.my palm and the rest of em' achin' bones are recoverin and i feel good.it's all good,homes!

so the next trip is next week and we are all waitin' for siddiq.i just can't wait. u wanna skate?

"Bones Break.Bones Heal.Glory Lasts Forever!"

adil vallely

sam rock

yanto tego

South Of Heaven

Jenama yng disukai ramai.Di pasaran sekarang!Cuba hari ini,selagi stok masih ada!

Insane In The Brain

OOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhYeAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Ladies & Gentlemen,presentin'...Powell Peralta's Classic-Steve Caballero Dragon & Bats!!!!!!!!!!

POWER!!!

very the Ol' Skool!Probably in the late 80s or early 90's edition.yeah!and it landed into my arms...or should i say feet?

story goes like this-saw this deck outside my home the other day as i was tying my shoelace,wasn't really paying attention,but the slow thought struck me that no other than me who love skates coz' my lil bro dig bmx.took a second glance before i stagger,saw a bright yellow words across the deck-CABALLERO,with a green dragon posing below..OHMIGOD!i couldn't believe my eyes,but i was really late,so i left in a hurry.was so busy with work till the day before i asked my bro via sms,whose deck was it?in a split second he replied,it was his and he found it.he also added,i could have it.without hesitation,i responded,asking him to bring along to work the next day,and to cut story short,i got it.

it wasn't really in a bad condition,though there are chipped parts at the nose and rear,the dumb previous owner have left some spray marks,marker paints on both side of the wood,and initials on the trucks.soon after i've done all my work earlier(had a crazy day under the scorching sun)i met up with muradikal,and we slowly disassembled all parts,did a major cleanup,tore up the worn out grip tape,sandpapered the edges and greased up the bearings.the front wheels were vision and the back were bones hooked on tracker truck while the other gull wing,complete with side rails.and once completed,i was smiling cheek to cheek.

i have no intention to skate it,but to keep it,put it on display or something.it's a shame,that it's discarded,good thang my bro rescued it or i won't be madly drooling over it right now.

this brings back the fond teen memories.the reminiscence.of a schoolboy way back,dreamin' of gleamin' the cube.my first deck was a chris miller,bought second-hand from a senior dude.

since then,to school and back,on skates in my yellow converse,school disallowed,stashed both sneakers and board in rubbish bag,hid it in the bush,and crept back to recover it at the end of school day,every day.same routine,never got caught.and made lotsa cool skate friends as well.back then,if the pigs rolled by as u skate,they gave chase,still i don't understand why.

as time past,many of em' stopped skatin',some got married,some picked up drugs and ended up in rehabs,some totally lost and some just too ignorant to pass the sport as 'child stuff.'

it's the feel.music plugged into ears,ridin' on the board,the vibratin' & pulsatin' rhythm of the wheels,the thrillin' part is when you try to defy gravity and you fall but you never break any bones-now that's an adventure.

whatever it is,i'm still livin' it up.

thanx amir for the dragon & bats!

Karma Police

i lite up a cigarette,in this dark room,faint reggae music vibratin' the box.

so the ngantuk..

so nofx performed earlier but i missed it,but i don't care.not a fan of that obnoxious band.even if i had the ticket i can't go,i had to work.or i'll be in seriously deep shit.

bands.booze.loud music.mosh pit.stampede.

i had it.enough.

i was a party gatecrasher before,for every single gigs or concerts before.cheap thrill for a cheapskate.call me what you want,but i had it.jumped over walls,scuffled with securities,damaged fences just to be inside.it was fun.kinda adventurous in a way or another.most times,it got me real dirty,but i didn't give a shit.but come to think of it today,i kinda miss all those misadventures before.but if you ask me to do all that again,i will REJECT.sorry i won't do that no more.not that i'm a chicken,but i will look like an ass if ever get caught.that's right.we never think of all that before.we dismissed all that as a mere fiction.that the authorities will shut one eye.not today and not before.i was just lucky,gringo.

and days before a kid was caught entering wild wild wet illegally.he was caught and handed over to the police.i don't need to elaborate.get the picture?

talking about wild wild wet.i got couple of free complimentary tix.WOWwweeee!!i got those as some clients speak good things about my team and my company awarded us with a letter and POWER tickets.i earned it!(so don't need to climb fences lah!)

anyway,we're goin' there in the morning for a family day event.it's gonna be another long,hot day at the w.w.w.

and i have to wake up real early

-to have Mcdonald's super pancakes breakfast.POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'amaran:jgn terpedaya dengan pengaruh budaya barat'

Bullet With Butterfly Wings

The world as we see it today,besides the global warming,there is the unrest in southern Thailand,the endless deaths in Iraq and the recent craze-the perpetrator of Virginia Tech Massacre-Cho Seung-Hui .

Why?

I don't know myself.(are they war junkies?)But there are poor innocent people,with families and children caught in between.i understand that in iraq and southern thai,those folks are fighting against the authority for freedom and democracy-but are the killings necessary?so what about that weird korean dude,who killed many students and staffs and ending his uninteresting life with a gunshot to his head-that is so sick and stupid.his parents worked so hard to bring him up,from korea all the way to a foreign land,for education and a hope for a better life,dreamin' the American Dream...

talking about how safe we are here,a guy was hit and slashed in Sembawang few days back,so,how safe are we?

there are maniacs all over the whole world and it's becoming a scary place to live,don't you think?

The Black Parade

The Unknown & Definitely Not For The Faint Hearted

Before you see the ghost pic,there are things you should know about the place that i took the pic.

Here it is-

The Tuol Sleng Genocide Museum is a museum in Phnom Penh,Cambodia. The site is a former high school which was used as the Security Prison 21 (S-21) by the Khmer Rouge regime from its rise to power in 1975 to its fall in 1979.

The torture system at Tuol Sleng was designed to make prisoners confess to whatever crimes their captors charged them with. Prisoners were tortured with electric shocks, searing hot metal instruments and hanging, as well as through the use of various other devices.Out of an estimated 17,000 people imprisoned at Tuol Sleng, there were only seven known survivors.

When prisoners were first brought to Tuol Sleng, they were made aware of ten rules that they were to follow during their incarceration:-

1. You must answer accordingly to my question. Don’t turn them away.
2. Don’t try to hide the facts by making pretexts this and that, you are strictly prohibited to contest me.
3. Don’t be a fool for you are a chap who dare to thwart the revolution.
4. You must immediately answer my questions without wasting time to reflect.
5. Don’t tell me either about your immoralities or the essence of the revolution.
6. While getting lashes or electrification you must not cry at all.
7. Do nothing, sit still and wait for my orders. If there is no order, keep quiet. When I ask you to do something, you must do it right away without protesting.
8. Don’t make pretext about Kampuchea Krom in order to hide your secret or traitor.
9. If you don’t follow all the above rules, you shall get many many lashes of electric wire.
10. If you disobey any point of my regulations you shall get either ten lashes or five shocks of electric discharge.

Even though the vast majority of the victims were Cambodian, foreigners were also imprisoned, including Vietnamese, Laotians, Indians, Pakistanis, British, Americans, New Zealanders and Australians.

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i went down to Tuol Sleng museum with Marlia on our second day in Phnom Penh,riding on a motodop,we were joking and laughing happily on our way there,but once we stepped inside the notorious school turned torture centre,we weren't laughing anymore.it got this strange spooky feeling in every room,every level,every nook and cranny.

There were not many people,as probably most have left since we got there around 3pm.So in most places that we went within Tuol Sleng,besides the video room,we were all alone.

so,if you are ready to view,plz click here.

-God Bless Those Tortured Souls-

Bang Bang

way past midnight and i can't sleep.

did some liftings and a slow jog by the beach after i knocked off from work earlier.
the beach was quiet,only few romantic couples huddling at the breakwater and at the benches.the wind was blowing softly,but the skies above was slowly turning red.i did a big round and return to my pad.

i didn't go for dinner earlier.wasn't really hungry but shoved and chewed some bread along with 2 glasses of milk down the throat.took a shower and straight went to bed.

i kept tossing and turning,everytime i tried hard to sleep,my eyes keep pushing wide open.
so that's it,i can't sleep.
inserted a Moby cd into the player and still waiting to go to sleep.
and i didn't even yawn.

i had this condition since i was in the army before,went to see the medical officer,diagnosed me with insomnia,and sent me down to see a specialist at SGH.
after several appointments with the specialist,she finally prescribed me with sleeping pills which i took once and dared not swallow anything like that no more.it was too powerful,too strong for an active person like me.when i woke up i had aches all over my body and i can't think straight.
so i didn't went back to her and every night,i just wait for it to happen,naturally.

goodnight,sleep tight and don't let the boogey man bite.

Blue Monday

had one of the most wonderful sleep last night.didn't have sufficient rest over the weekend.had plenty of work.had too much of everything.and so,last night was good.and when i was awoken by the radio this morning,i felt so refreshed.and the best thing is,the radio was playing 'Blue Monday' by New Order of course.i was still struggling to open my eyes,and listening to the beat gave me strength,a powerful drive to start off on a fresh new week.i always have this thing about music & life,and when that dj spin that song on the am radio really,really brighten up my day,in a way i guess.

i love mondays,bet most doesn't.mondays i work in pm shift,and by evening,most of the guys will leave home,leaving me behind,almost alone.i just play music,all by myself,and those strangers that walk aimlessly past my console.

i remembered how i was so mad last weekend.those indecisive people who wanted this,and the other who came up who wanted that instead,and blaming us for lack of communications,but the fact is it wasn't us,but them who wanted to stir shit up and i wondered,"why the hell are they doin' tis?"but whenever they came up to me,i just smile and told em' straight up,"Dude,u wanna vent up,u got the wrong person."
how i wish i own an AK47.

i wasn't really a patient person,but i gotta do what i'm supposed to.i gotta earn a living.i got responsibilities and sometimes though how difficult it is,i just gotta stay cool.losing temper+vulgarities will have pretty bad consequences.and one thing for sure = violence breed violence breed violence.
and i don't want that anymore.
i just wanna be nice and twice as nice.
i just wanna smile and laugh even there are double the trouble.


bring it on!

Friday I'm In Love

hell,it was raining again.

it was kinda perfect in the morning when i woke up;

sun's ray on the tree leaves,

the birds chirping in melodious harmony,

yellow butterflies dancing around the green rubbish bin,

fat folks jogging with ridiculous dreams of being slim jim..

it's all good.

and when i hopped on my scoot and head back home for lunch,

it drizzled.

then came the crazy storm on the highway.

drove me nuts.

when you are riding on the highway,and the rain hits your face,it's painful.

feels like a thousand needles poking your soft flesh with no mercy.

and it's dangerous too.those bloody trucks and evil taxis just won't be nice to your ass.

so,the best thing to do,don't ride a bike when it's raining.but i didn't.

well,i was halfway there,and i'm Sooo Soakin' Wet.

got home,satisfied my tummy and went back to work.

so at work today,we just hung back and relax.the bosses ain't around you see,

so we did our lil bit,plan about the weekends,

and ...

i decided to do a lil maintenance.

cleaned and greased up my skateboard ball bearings.

and Muradikal assisted.

another perfect day at work.

friday i'm in love.

just like that song.

it's all good.

Iron Man

i'm feeling like shit.

got a real bad flu.it started with an irritating sore throat which eventually developed into a 'factory producing glow-in-the-dark phlegms.'hingus meleleh non-stop.'
swallowed panadols,sucked lozenges,drank lotsa water,tried hard to have some sleep but i just can't.good thing i'm working in the afternoon tomorrow.now my left brain starting to send out signals-Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.Beep.in a piercing rhythm,feels like my skull gonna rip apart any moment now.(am i sure that it signals not fire alarm?)

how i wish i could visit the doctor,plead for 2 or 3 days mc,i could recuperate at home,you know,r & r.watch tv,continue with the saved games,i could do wonders.i could be healthy and fit for work again.

but i just can't.'takmo spoil market ahh..'i just got back from my leave and what would everybody say...hmmmmmmmmmmm...(bodoh ke bodek?)

i'm feeling like shit,still.

Song 2

OLE!!!OLE!!!OLE!!!OLE!!!OLE!!!!!!!OLE!!!!!!!

YEAHHH!!!Tall Lanky Peter 'Tiger' Crouchie goal was fabulous!!!

We won!!!!and hey,we will be meeting chelsea aka the blues for the next match,but for now i feel so exultant that i can't sleep..(now gotta plan what excuse gonna give just in case i'm late to work again..Boring....)Woooooooooo.....

HOOORRRAYYY!!!!CHEERS!!!!

Fools Gold

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......sigh!back to work after that wonderful trip.felt so sian.was like dragging my butt earlier today,an hour half late for meeting(it was raining pretty bad at the highway on the way to work but it was so bright and sunny when i reached workplace..not giving excuse,really!!)kept yawning every now and then,mind unfocused,everything seemed Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo s.l.o.w.

in fact i wasn't there the whole time,i was elsewhere,i was thinking so much about else things,i told myself i didn't wanna think about that trip,and so i did.but i think i need another vacation,desperately.not that i'm lazy,(hey you know that!)but that just wasn't enough.

-the slightly more important issues-

as i was lost earlier,my mind go way deep and highlighted a list of 7 things.

1-in the meeting earlier,boss reminded us to smile more at work-as far as i know i was smiling even when i'm asleep,funny,where does all this people come from?must they be told just to smile?Gimme a break...

2-my throat was really dry the whole day,but i kept drinking tea the whole time,5 cups to be exact.yeah,i should be drinking lotsa water don't you agree?especially with the current killing weather situation.

3-Ben my friend told me that 2 boys drowned at the sea near our workplace few days back.sad.me and some buddies jumped at quarries at ubin about 5 floors down before,yeah it was fun,but were too stupid to think about how close we were to death.

4-i wonder why people worry too much.i worry too much too sometimes.i worried about camouflaged traffic police with speed cams mostly.

5-i didn't have my breakfast and only had lunch almost everyday,while dinner i seldomly eat.i jog 3 or 4 times a week,i swim every wed and thur morning,i lift weights regularly as i could but still i gain weight.my weight was 76.8 kg last night.probably my clothes and shoes were a lil bit heavier.plus all those stuff in my pockets,the buttons,my cap,the dusts that settled on my hair...

6-liverpool vs psv.i gotta stay awake to watch that game.(and i have to give excuses to marlia that i've to go home early...yeah..pssst jgn pauto!!)You'll Never Walk Alone!

7-i miss dr dre's the chronic album.gotta go out and search for it tomorrow.

Bitter Sweet Symphony

Tale of three cities

Phnom Penh.Siem Reap.Ho Chi Minh.

Couple on a shoestring budget,left changi on a jet plane to super sunny cambodia on the 31st,met David(an old friend,ex-colleague working for the 'company.') at Pochentong airport.Took us on a tuk tuk ride to sisowath,help us checked to the hotel.Briefed us on what must & what nots in cambodia.his information & advice is so valuable,and without him we wouldn't have gone that far.

Phnom Penh-very hot,dirty,dusty,poverty,rundown buldings,a city probably many would avoid.but i like.we like.one of the most coolest place i've ever been.friendly folks,and even with the language barrier,they are too quick to disarm you with a smile.cheap stuffs-bargain.bargain.bargain @psar ta toumpong,psar thmei and in fact,you can even bargain for tuk tuk fare.went down to check out Toul Sleng,a school converted to a prison,where prisoners who were made up of intellectuals,foreigners,ethnic minorities during the khmer rouge regime were tortured.real spooky place.(i accidentally took a pic with 'something' behind me!)

city is undergoing mass development.still,best thing for sure,i will go back to phnom penh!

Siem Reap-6 hours back aching,butt swelling bus ride from Phnom Penh,but well worth the journey.Siem Reap is home to the amazing & mysterious Angkor wat.there were so many temples and so many things to see & even a day tour is not enough.we went there as early as 5am to catch the sunrise.and not only we witnessed a glowing sunrise,we saw a bright full moon at our backs.POWER!quite a laidback cowboy town,our hotel is quite close to pub street,where the pubs and restaurants are,quite similar to boat quay.perfect place.

Saigon aka Ho Chi Minh City-was an unplanned trip.although on a constraint budget,we gave it a shot.another around 6 hours bus ride,passing paddy fields,saw plenty of cows and motorcycles-carrying-pigs.but once disembarked from bus,how was i shocked to see the 'worst,unforgiving,heaviest traffic i've ever seen!'it's not only pollution,it's an eyesore.really.but then again,i couldn't believe that ho chi minh city is quite advance,quite similar to Kuala Lumpur.so we went down to Chu Chi tunnels,where the guerrilla forces dig tunnels 3 floors underground,we tried the AK47 at the firing range,then we went to the war museum,where all the derelicts of war which include a m14 tank,huey chopper and of course,very informative pictorial history & misery of the vietnam war.checked out ben thanh market,a good place to shop for silk and all those 'makcik -makcik' stuffs.

and now that i'm back,i feel that i'm not the same person anymore.

it's an uncomfortable truth.

for what i've seen,we're so lucky.for what i've learnt,we complained too much.

while their paddy fields are dried up due to the harsh global warming,we conveniently dump every bit of electric-cooked rice down the rubbish chute.

here we often waste our food to the waste bin,there they dig up food out of the waste bin.

even the least fortunate here are fortunate enough,the less fortunate there are struggling still.

in tattered loose filthy clothes,unkempt hair,long dirty fingernails,often barefooted,carrying a crying baby in one arm while the other begging for small change.i saw a limbless guy,crawling on the streets towards me,i can't bear to look.and i saw tuk-tuk drivers rushed to the entrance of the bus door in large groups mocking every single passengers alighting,pushing and pulling in desperation,begging them to take their ride for a mere fee,and only dispersed after being caned by the police.

it's real and it's happening.

it's a competition here,it's a survival out there.

you're so lucky.

the captured colourful journey click here (warning:not fully updated yet)