Always-Bon Jovi

it's been wet right at the beginning of first light today,and till now,there're still drips of drizzle outside.

it's not really a good day,the rain part of it and especially when we received a sad tragic news back home,and everybody's emotional and there was this awkward silence occupying us-tensed and sorrows-my other half was in a bad state,hurt her so much drained all her tears till her eyes swell.there's nothing much we can do except to pray hard that nothing else could go wrong,for a good uncle who's very close to the family,who's now at the cold hospital ward,awaiting test samples and the doctor's announcement for the latest progression,results and plans for the next step.

i was warded and underwent surgery numerous times.
there were even times i didn't even notify my parents that i was going to the hospital,only to rang them up when i need them for signatures on documents.
i knew how it felt,being alone,awating for your time,those transfers from bed to stretchers and being trolleyed over to the operating rooms.the glass doors shut and ebok on the other side,waving as balls of tears rolled down her cheek.i wish i didn't looked at her.no,i wish i didn't have to be there and did that all that.that hurts her deep.
and that hurts me still.